Happiness is such a fragile, fleeting thing

"Happiness is such a fragile, fleeting thing". Dats ducky boy's personal msg on msn. Juz now a grp of us went for dinner at modestos and this was a sudden decision cos me n kc intended to go imm for dinner. Anyway ducky boy was one of them who went.

I noticed he wasnt in a very gd mood since tea break. I dun noe if i made a correct decision by joining them bt i thought since it was a grp i dun think anything will happen. After talking to inez i realized his bad mood may be due to the fact that i turn down his offer to watch movie n have dinner with him on sat yest night. It took me a long time to decide if i shld go or nt. Its either i turn him down or go out with him n trash things out. However, i realized i wouldnt noe how to broach the topic when im out with him.

When u dun think anything will happen, it happens. The 3 of us went back on the same train. I dun noe how they felt bt it does feel kind of wierd if u really go think bout it. Well all was fine...no awkward silence whatsoever. KC said he will send me home, i told him no need bt of cos it fell on deaf ears. I din want him to cos i thought it will be wierd bt since he was comfortable with it i guess i shldnt think too much.

I noe he doesnt feel gd and i actually felt sad when i saw his personal msg. I dun want to hurt him bt i have to do it now before i hurt him even more. Initially i thought i wouldnt care if he will feel sad. I was even thinking if i get together with kc den maybe he will give up totally. Now i think i muz be a jerk to even have such thoughts.

I guess this is wat is stopping me. The reasons i said before may be wat i thought only, nt wat it actually is.